The 38-year-old admits there are still days when walking is difficult or his back feels as though it is burning.
“My body is simply unable to do the things I want it to do,” he explains.
Dan had tests to determine whether his tumours were genetic. Although the results offered some reassurance, he continues to face an uncertain future.
“It feels like losing my identity. I’ve been known as ‘Dan the referee’ since I was 10.
“That role has defined who I am and shaped my personality for 28 years.
“Realising that chapter of my life has ended is extremely difficult to deal with emotionally.”
Dan is currently receiving support from a psychologist as he considers what to do next.
“I feel like a 16-year-old who has just finished school and is trying to decide what to do with the rest of his life,” he says with a smile.
“There are several possibilities, including continuing to work in football.
“However, after the mental health difficulties I’ve experienced, I’m unsure whether that will be possible.
“Could I remain part of a sport I love even though I can no longer participate in it myself?”
What he knows for certain is that his family will be at the heart of his future.
“I want to prioritise my son, my fiancée and my stepchildren. I also hope to promote men’s mental health and encourage men to speak openly about their health concerns.
“If my experience helps even one or two men, I will feel that I have achieved something worthwhile.”
Dan also recognises that any return to football would have to be motivated by the right reasons.
“I need to rediscover my passion and determination.”
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